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Well, today I decided to bite the bullet & start the process of going through my grandmothers' belongings. I had cleaned out her house mostly while my mother was still here (right after she passed away in Nov). I thought that going through the things that were in storage would be easier. Boy, was I wrong. So many reminders of the amazing woman she was. I'm pretty sure she saved EVERY card I ever made or bought for her. I found them all today, along with programs from school concerts & things like that. I also found her wedding dress. I can remember her letting me play dress up in it when I was about 10 years old (that's probably the only time in my life the dress actually fit me). So, I've been thinking of what I could do with the dress. No one will be able to wear it, but I'm hoping I can salvage some of the lace, etc & use it to make something for my daughter for when she decides to get married (hopefully not for a long time). I'd also like to make something for my 2 cousins (her other grandaughters) to have when they decide to get married (again, hopefully not for a long time). I found letters from some of my grandmothers old boyfriends from high school & tucked into a little box, I found love letters that my grandfather had written her before they got married. That was as far as I got. After reading the letters, I couldn't go through any more. I sat & cried for a long time & thought of the amazing love they shared & how much I miss them both every day. I guess I'm not really ready to sort through her life yet. It still hurts too much. Everyone tells me it will get easier, but I wonder if it really will. For now, I guess everything will just stay in boxes.