Today's the Day...

I start my new job. I've actually been looking forward to going back to work. Until this morning anyway. Today I'm not so excited. After 17 years in Nursing, I should NOT be having panick attacks at the thought of walking into the Nursing home!! I've been there 3 times already for paperwork & PPD tests & was FINE every time!! The second time I went in to have my 1st PPD test checked, I stopped in the hallway to chat with a few of the residents, pushed one woman in her wheelchair to the end of the hall (because it was right after lunch & she was just so stuffed that she didn't have the umphh to push it herself ~ her words, not mine ~ lol) & talked to a couple of the nurses I'll be working with. I left with a smile on my face & the realization that I was ready to jump back in to the work thing. So why am I bawling like a baby & hyperventilating this morning? I couldn't sleep last night at all, so of course this morning I'm exhausted (I'm hoping that's why I'm freaking out today)! And to top it off ~ I won't even actually be WORKING today !! I'll just be watching all the wonderful videos ~ How to wash your hands (duh), Blood Borne Pathogens, Resident Rights, etc. I've seen them all about 100 times & could probably recite at least 1/2 of them word for word. Ok ~ I'm done pissing & moaning ! On a brighter note ~my girlfriend called me last night (we haven't talked in about 3 months) & we're going to see my FAVORITE band in July !! WooHoo ~ Nickelback concert in Hershey!! Hinder & Saving Abel are opening & I love them both too! I missed the concert in Philly this month & was extremely bummed! Gonna go see Bret Michaels in April too. He does some shows every year at a little club that's about 5 minutes from my house (Goodfellas Warehouse) & I've missed his show every time for like the last 4 years! Finally he's there on a Friday night so even if I have to work I can stop at the club on my way home. Well ~ better go get the house in order before I have to leave. Hope everyone has a great day !